Dear God #2

Dear God,

I’ve been thinking lately about the future and about how I’ve always been taught that you know the beginning from the end. I don’t doubt that. I don’t understand it either but then again there are a lot of things I accept that I don’t understand. But it has been bothering me, you know, this thing called sovereignty. Do the bad things we do play in to your grand scheme of things? If so, then how can I really be making any real “mistakes” now?

Oh, yeah, and like why was I born in New York and not Tibet? If I hadn’t taken that teaching job in Boston and had never met certain people, would I still be in such a mess today? Did you know I’d be feeling like this now?

In the Old Testament I note you tear people up, annihilate nations, lay waste men, woman and children in a genocidal wave of the hand just so that your Chosen people can lay claim to a piece of land on the other side of the Jordan. Why’d you stuff like that? It’s so … weird! If Puerto Ricans lived on the wrong side of the Jordan we would have been wiped out a long time ago. That ain’t right!

Don’t you think it would be a bit odd for me to kill my neighbor and then announce to my family at breakfast that I am such an all-loving and merciful father? Where’s the grace in that? People won’t tell you to your face but you know, they do talk behind your back and wonder about these things.

Jesus didn’t talk the same way you did back in the day. He doesn’t really even seem to be the same person and yet there’s this thing we call the Trinity. I think they call that “liberal” theology but I don’t know God they sound like pretty legit questions to me.

I know all this is blasphemous but if you can’t take these wonderments of mine and if they offend you then I’m really sorry. I talked to a friend of mine about them the other day and they weren’t offended. You’re much more mature than they are and so I don’t think you should take it all that seriously. Please don’t do anything bad to me for talking like this!! David spoke much harshly in the Psalms and you made him a king even when he killed an innocent man and stole his wife!!